How To Deal


Sometimes a man has to choose
And do something he doesn't wanna do
Do I live my life with you as my wife
Or do I go on and pursue my lifetime dream
I gotta do this for me
Cuz if I don't I'll probably regret it
But if I do I'll probably regret it
How do I cope



How do you cope when
The one you love is with somebody else
And there's nothing you could do about it
How do I deal with
The fact that you had a chance
But you chose to turn away for your career
I gotta take it though it's heartbreakin'
It's something that I had to do
But nobody said that it would hurt so bad
So how do I live...how do I deal without you


It's killing me to know
That your heart's with me
But you're with him cause I chose
To be in this industry
Money, shows, and hoes come along with luxury and pain
Is all you see when you think about it
But this is the life that I was given
So I have to live it to the fullest
But how do I deal in the meantime without you

.:AngeL+DeViL blogged on 11:37 PM:.
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Been working at "wine hut" these few nights.. finally got a chance to rest today...
Work was okie except that i heard some stuff which really p!** mi off a bit.


It's got sth to do wif my sch..Yeah.. you know.. the "Video" things..
In one night a lot i have came across ....A few tables that were talking about it like nobody's business...
Not that i mind a lot , but HEY!! Be it executives or university (Yes , ...Even the Educated Under Grads are SOOoooo K=P=O!!) are asking their mates whether they have seen it or not..Blah Blah Blah....


I mean come on , NYP actually became worlD Famous OVEr Night!! OMG.. This is singaporeans man.. When news broke out that the world is depleting in resources ..or IRAQ n US war.. It didn even SPREad that fast lor.. PPl jus mind their own business when it comes to current affairs..
BUT BUT BUT!! when it comes to Other normal ppl's private lives (esp the word "S*x" ) kinda stories, it SUDDENLY become's other people's business as well.. CONVIENTLY toking about it day and night ....majiam its one of their close frend or sth... come on la.. Give the Poor girl a break lor... ITs not illegal or anything. jus that She is jus Sway one lo... SOOooo Pls la.. Give more concern to the NEEDY people out there and not the "unwilling Entertaining" poor souls la..


Some may say that i am also toking about the matter wat...Hey we can give comments about the matter. BUT we have 110% no Right to criticise the girl lo.. We are not part of the 'Action' anyway.. Nowadays, when strangers tok to me.. ESp once they found out im from NYP..The first Question goes" Eh..Got see the Video not??.......The girl....." ....-___-"" and notice...The news keep toking about the Girl... DEN THE BOY LEH!!!!! he'd not dead or sth ... Maybe the media should give him HIS part of the lime light also......


til den .. peace out man..

.:AngeL+DeViL blogged on 5:31 PM:.
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My first day @ ARDC.... and it goes sth like this,

ARDC is bored...makes my life so bored...
I Yawn all day, I Ywan all the time...

I got nothing to DO except to DROOL...

but at least i Got a Bonus Gift....
I still got my friends @ SPT and GYm and I appreciate it a LOT

Til den, Chill ....

.:AngeL+DeViL blogged on 9:40 PM:.
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Well... all good things must come to an end
and yesterday i ended my TEP @ Gym and SPT
with my wonderful bunch of mates
which i will really MISS...




MISS the times where we slack together
MISS the times where we work hard
MISS the times where we "escape" from the watchful eyes of "Mr DL"
MISS the times where we hear each others troubles and joys
MISS the times where i had your support and you all had mine...


So i decided to dedicate this post to you guys ...


To Jaslin: Able to eat is a blessin...you keep that in mind...


To Fairus: Without you the group is Damn Quiet..haha thanks for making TEP fun n happy relationship with Ain =)


To Loretta: Babe, you got all the 'Garang' attitude that a hot chick has..and you make TEP "Hot" haha...make all the guys go gu-gu ga-ga o_o


To Sahairi: I really admire your GREAt Patience in everyting esp. all the Art stuff.. You RockS man


To Rallen: A big head that comes after 10plus BUt..still produces some interesting stuffz...BUt alwayS @ loggerheads with me man.. "Yuan Jia *chinese*" of my life man...


To Wan Ping: A great debator !! and her 'chemistry' with kong is very cute!! Love the both of them..lolx


To Imran: World Champ..I hope your big goals do come true and looking forward to your success! your passion in Silat makes my "Salute" u !! =D


To Fauzi: A silent Hero, but a matured decisions... thanks for being by the team's side (although u may never read this) BUT still, a BIg thank you !!


To Jane: A friend is always there for you no matter how much you don't sense it ... but it will never vanish ...




LOVE you GUYs!!! remb the times we had and don;t change that attitude towards each other.. We will always be locked in each other hearts ......

.:AngeL+DeViL blogged on 6:04 PM:.
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she's always on my mind,
from the time i wake up
'till i close my eyes
she's everywhere i go
she's all i know

though she's so far away
it's just keeps getting stronger
every day
and even now she's gone
i'm still holding on

so tell me where do i start
'cause it's breaking my heart
don't wanna let her go

chorus:
maybe my love will come back some day
only heaven knows
and maybe our hearts will find their way
only heaven knows
and all i can do is hope and pray
'cause heaven knows

my friends keep telling me
that if you really love her
you've gotta set her free
and if she returns in kind
i'll know she's mine

so tell me where do i start'cause it's breaking my heart
don't wanna let her go

chorus

why i live in despair'cause
wide awake or dreaming
i know she's never thereand all these time i act so brave
i'm shaking inside
why does it hurt me so...

chorus

heaven knows




This is the song i find particularly romantic bcoz i was at suntec one night when i pass by the Fountain of Wealth and this song was playin and the mood was perfect, the wind was blowing gently, the lights were nice and a couple was dancing to the music. It was one of the most romantic scene i have ever seen in Singapore.....so.. the locals do have some love in the air... hmmm.... oh well... chill...

.:AngeL+DeViL blogged on 12:21 AM:.
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Recently I noticed that I've been having this conversation which i have no answer to and it really bothers mi... it goes something like tat:

Anybody:"So what do you wanna do after you finish poly"
Me: "..........................."
Me:"erm, maybe futher studies i GUESS.....or find a job.. maybe lo... not sure yet......"
Anybody:" So wat do you intent to do in future? what do you wanna be? "
Me:" ...........................hmmm...................."
Me:"..................................................................................................................................................................................."


seriously if you ask me, I have not answer, Or actually i do , but i don't really dare to pursue or to imagine it cox im jus not daring enough to try it.... like wat i told fish the other day.. im struggling to find a passion , the spark that allow me to pursue it so that my life is fruitful.. or at least meaningful ... haix.. but oh well, life goes on and i still have to figure it out my life.... til den.. PEAce Muakx...

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