"Superwoman"


Tats what some have called me.
"She dun need to sleep one la..she work all day all night"


but...after
working 7 days a week. * tats' everyday
sleeping less than 4-5 hours a day.
thinking more than 24hours a day. *even in my sleep,
I fall sick.
Once again.


2 days MC.
finally.


i earn my MC all thanks to Fever, Flu and Sore Throat.
All came visiting me in one night.


Today is my first day of MC.
I thought a lot.


I need to rethink my piorities , my focuses, my life.
i should spent more time with family and friends..
i should.....
but..
i cant. See that wats makes lifes so contradicting .
You want to do something very much but very often you are doing something you do not want to do.


Nevermind if you do not understand the above statement.


Im basically not in the right state of mind.


Lately too much things have been happening.
Interviews from newspapers..
from school..


everytime after each interview, i stop to think,
Whats so good about the award anyways?
I mean, why do people want to know what have you achieved?
There is nothing much to report about frankly.
I lead a simple life, in a humble home in Jurong.


Im not upset.
im just not used to the attention.
Its just that awards are not that important to me.
So yeah... i just do wat im told to do...
haix...
i wonder when the time comes when im doing sth that i realy like?
sth...
tat sth....


DEspite all that interviews and credits,
I still have difficulies getting/finding a university that truely matches my interest.
Money talks. How true.
but im not going to give up.
I want to make sure my education makes money worthwhile.
And not the other way round.


Education buy you money, but money cannot buy you education.
because you could be a Masters Degree holder, but a 'spoilt brat manager to be'.
At the end of the day you could buy 'useful' people to work for you.
help to earn you the big bucks.


but these 'useful' people of yours are not stupid.
they'll soon take over ur business, kick ur ass and assume ur role as boss.
pardon if i sound very crude.


but i kinda could picture how the world works and i really hope im not part of any vicious scam.


Im really sick and tired of chasing the big bucks.


i think i should take it slow again.
remind myself that life's not just about working.
I think...
i wanna take a trip back to my wonderful memories.. places were i feel warm and happy..


back to previous school, back to places i feel relaxing.. =]
im chasing again..
chasing after my life =]

.:AngeL+DeViL blogged on 8:13 PM:.
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