Experience Loneliness, Learning Happiness...


I realised.
I dont know myself anymore.
This is not an 'emo' post.
Its what I am now.


I got a job, got salary, got experience.
But NO Life.
I neglect my family the most.
I feel distant from them already.
ITs Christmas Season,
I suddenly remembered the times when my mum will always bring me to orchard
to take photos with the brightly lit decorations..
with bugs bunny and all..
EVery year.
without fail... when i was younger..
...
now that im old..
hit 20 on july..
no photos, no presents (nicely wrapped ones)


How can i have neglected my family?


I always feel, that im lonely because im busy with work, for a better future ahead for my family.
Execuses.
Im always asking myself why dun i feel any Love at all?
Love, is a never ending lesson.
My previous article about finding true love,
i realised is superficial.


How can i truely love a person when i cant even love my own family?
I chanced upon the book : "I kissed dating goodbye"
I dun understand the bible learning inside or the quotes from the bible,
but what i understood was,
How do you Love your other half? Simple.
Start from the Family.


your other half will be like your mummy, whom you see almost every other day and
the bonding cannot be broken.
I know its a strange way of describing it,
but i've kinda seen many situations,
where
Your girlfriends are nice to their boyfriends and the next, cold towards their brothers and sisters. Some are nicer to boyfriends are mean to their child hood friends...


I dun know what kind of a partner i will be,
but he shall me my 'mummy'. haha.
meanwhile, there is not point waiting for love,
It always there.
'Practice' it on ur mummies and daddies and even on ur brother and sisters and friends.
if you are attached, be true in front of your partner.



Mum, I love you. haha. *mushy mushy*
*my mum wun see this anyway.*


Quote of the day:
"Having a lot of friends dosen mean you are popular.
Being Popular dosen mean you are nice.
A nice person dosen say he's nice.
Life is contradicting.
Dun Live with it.
Live your own life."



.:AngeL+DeViL blogged on 10:33 PM:.
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